I am very fragile today.  My mom died two weeks ago today.  In fact in 32 min it will be the exact time.  We buried her last Friday.  I have been home for 3 days.  The first day was consumed with caring for my husband who hurt his back last week.

The second day I slept a total of 14 hours.  I was in a funk.  Read and stayed on couch and napped all day.

Today, the third day I decided to go out. To the bank and to the store.  I was out of my comfort zone.  I felt very vulnerable.  I was shaking. I couldn’t talk without quivering.

I came home and got my bearings.  I was preparing to take my husband back to the doctor when I wanted to reach out to a dear friend.  His info was gone.  It was just there a few days ago.  It has been there for years.  I had a feeling of loss overwhelm me. I was scared.  All of the familiar things are no longer.

I feel so fragile.

 

 

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